No Emotion?

Has something ever happened to you that you SHOULD be sad or mad about but you feel.. .well... nothing?I'm having this really odd feeling. I'm being really dependent on God. SO PEACEFUL.

Long story short:
I really liked this guy. Didn't turn out. bla bla bla high school stuff.

I am EXTREMELY familiar with the feeling of not being good enough for a guy. Happens to me a lot. I always get really down on myself. My self-esteem hits an all time low, I get a bad attitude, I cry a lot, I eat a lot. Girl stuff. (You only understand if you are a girl. SERIOUSLY)

.........this time though....... I am utterly content.

I should be raging mad. Or sad. I should have cried myself to sleep. I don't even know. The flesh thing to do. I should have done that.

I AM ENOUGH FOR GOD!
GOD IS ENOUGH FOR ME!

I'm at this peaceful place in my heart where I'm just telling myself "WHO CARES?!"
I got hurt. boooo hoooo. Jesus went through SO much more than my petite struggles.

I'm ok! I'm really okay.


I have an eternity with my King to look forward to. I can't wait.

NOTHING CAN COMPARE TO THE JOY THAT'S COMING!